Owh..I was demotivated..

Some of u might know Budak Botak have been away from me from Monday..

Erk..Monday?

Today is Tuesday...Only 1 day maaa...But I feel it take sssssoooooo long...

Since Budak Botak not with me anymore, I feel so demotivated. Even working with a stress condition, I still can manage my emotional. But, when its about Budak Botak..hmmmm

I FEEL don't want to take vitamin Shaklee anymore.
I FEEL don't want to drink water.
I FEEL don't want to finish up my meal.
I FEEL don't want to cheer up myself.
I FEEL don't want to sms.
I FEEL don't want to do my job carefully.
I FEEL don't want to pumping.
I FEEL don't want to laugh.
I FEEL don't want to go to work.
I FEEL don't want to sleep.
I FEEL don't want to go back from office.
I FEEL don't want everyone around me.

Everyday i FEEL like to scream as loud as i can..If i wish i can do that..
Everyday i FEEL i want to be alone without anybody.

BUT,

Life must go on..
You have to be strong..
Maybe there is a good thing that you will received from this incident..

I remember my friend's word:

MAYBE ALLAH HIDING A SUN FROM YOU,
BECAUSE HE WANT TO GIVE A BEAUTIFUL RAINBOW LATER.

Hopefully all this FEEL flies away as soon as possible.......................

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Mulai minggu lepas budak botak tu dah dok skali ngan den...Hepinye rasa atiku ini...Mulai minggu lepas gak dia mula membiasakan diri dok ngan pengasuh...Almaklumlah...Dapat ibu yg berkejaya nih...Tepaksalah kan...

Rutin harian dah bertukar...

Dulu...

630am - bangun tido, iron baju
640am - solat subuh
650am - mandi manda
710am - siap2 pakai baju, kemas sket2 katil, pakai tudung, sarung beg azimat
720am - broooo000000mmm..bermula perjalanan ke opiz
755am - sampai opiz Pak Jeh
800am - bertolak dari opiz Pak Jeh
815am/820am - sampai opiz den.. (kdg2x brekpes skali...kdg2x malas..bese brekpes skali lah)
630pm - bertolak balik dari opiz den
7oopm - sampai kedai makan
8oopm - sampai umah, golek2x, mandi(kut rajin), solat
10pm/11pm - tidoq

Sekarang...

600am - Fiqah terjaga, bunyi azan, susukan budak botak tu, sambung tido
615am - bangun, streka baju
625am - solat
630am - tuko pampers Fiqah sambil sembang2x ngan budak tu
640am - mandi
7ooam - siap2x pakai baju, tudung, susukan Fiqah skali lg
710am - pakai tudung, capai beg pink Fiqah
720am - tok tok tok...umah pengasuh(selang 2 blok jek dari umah den)
725am - broooo0000mmmm ke opiz Pak Jeh
755/8ooam - bergerak dari opiz Pak Jeh menuju opiz den plak
815am - berenti sepedek sat
830am - sampai suda opiz den..
615pm - kelam kelibut nak gerak lik
650pm - sampai umah pengasuh, amik Fiqah, brooooo000mmm balik umah..
7oopm - golek2x ngan Fiqah..
730pm - tidokan Fiqah
11/12pm - den masuk bilik tidoq

Kesimpulan dari peristiwa di atas,

DULU, malam makan skali sambil bergurau senda
SKRG, makan malam asing2x

DULU, sampai umah rilek2x trus tukar baju, solat, tgk tibi sampai kul 11/12pm
SKRG, sampai umah menatap Fiqah..itu je masa yg ada nak main sama2x...sian budak botak tu..

DULU, sampai umah time balik keje, sunyi jeee
SKRG, sampai umah xsunyi dah..syok dok main2x ngan budak botak..

DULU, balik umah pun masih rasa bahang keje yg tensi..
SKRG, balik umah tgk muka Fiqah, ilang rasa penat keje..

DULU, tido malam direct je sampai ke pagi
SKRG, tido malam bersulamkan menyusu Fiqah every 2 hours..

DULU, rilek je lik keje...wat slowx
SKRG, kene balik ikut time..kul 615pm kene gerak dah balik..Kalo x, nanti lambat amik Fiqah..

Eventhough life skrg agak kelam kabut, sibuk, penat..Tapi, semua tu HILANG bila menatap muka anak yang comey lotey tuh..Org ckp penat lah malam2x bangun menyusukan anak..Tapi, dengan kuasa Allah swt, segala penat tu x terasa..Den yg kuat tido nih pun leh bangun malam2x tanpa rasa nak marah..Kalo dulu, tido pasti kene 8jam..Lebey xpe, kurg jgn..

Pagi2x bila Fiqah bangun, dia pandang kiri, pandang kanan sambil blur2x..Pastu tengok muka dia and tegur "Assalamualaikum...Good Morning Fiqah...Selamat Pagi.." Trus dia senyum lebo...haish..cair terus ati den tgk die senyum...Comelnya anak ibu ngan ayah nih..

Buat yg belum ada anak, sumpah BEST kalo ada budak kecik..Wlpun penat menjaga, tp penat tu hilang sekelip mata tanpa rasa apa2x..

Hati yg sentiasa tenang...
Jiwa yg sentiasa tenang..

SENYUM~